Changes

When obstacles arise in life, the way you handle yourself determines your destiny and helps build character.

So that was my latest facebook status. Right now my whole life is an obstacle. I know how I feel and that I want to be happy. I also know what it will take for me to be happy. The question is, am I strong enough to do what I feel I need to do?

The choices that I make, though they will not be easy, will have direct consequences on my life and my future. When I use the word consequences, it is neither negative nor positive. All actions in life have consequences, some good and some bad. It is the way we choose to handle ourselves that builds our character.

I am a strong woman. Whatever happens in life, I know I will succeed. Life may be difficult, but most things in life that are worth anything require work.

Chapters

Life is like a book but the pages are blank. The things we do day in and day out is what fills the pages. You never know what will be on the next page until that day comes. The situations we get into and the way we handle them make our book a choose your own adventure. Options need to be weighed, thought needs to happen.

My thoughts today and the path I travel will have consequences, some positive, some negative. It all depends on the outlook one has. My cup is half full so I look at the brighter side of things.

Do I know the ultimate outcome? No. What I do know is what my actions for today will be. I have no control over another, their words or actions, but I do have control over how I react to them.

I will embrace today with open arms and a positive attitude. I will do what makes me happy.

Life

Ok. So I'm sitting at Starbucks thinking about life. I have not been truly happy in a long time. Emotionally I have been in the dumps...however I have decided that my happiness is mine for the taking. Those that hurt me with cutting remarks need to go, there is no room in my life for crap. Time is what I need...time to heal...time to feel...time.

Am I asking too much? I don't think so. It's my life and I'm taking control of my happiness, of my future. If someone is toxic to me, they need to go.

Ok...been awhile...

My mother has told me that I need to update my blog so here goes...
In a nutshell I feel as though my life is completely falling apart. I am losing control of my children. Rules need to be enforced consistently but my husband disagrees with this. Not a good situation for anyone to be in. The TAKS test is coming up way too soon and that totally stresses me out. There are more things but I don't want to air all of my dirty laundry.

I know that God is in control of everything because He created everything. I need to trust Him and lean on Him. Maybe that is the lesson I am supposed to be learning.

If you read this, say a prayer for me and my family.

Puppy, Sissy

My new puppy, Sissy, is 6 weeks old. I have never had a puppy of my very own before and the vet laughed at me when I told her this. Makes me wonder what I really have in store for me. Her mom, D-O-G, was abandoned at my parent's home and they did not realize she was pregnant until she gave birth. All of us thought she had had puppies but did not know where they were until the day she actually gave birth. Mom and Dad are keeping D-O-G but the puppies must find homes or they go to the pound. D-O-G will be fixed and they will keep her and I have found homes for the 2 boys and have taken none home that leaves 1 sweet black female. The vet said she thinks the puppies will not be larger than 50 lbs. I hope so.

We brought Sissy home on Friday. Being unsure of sleeping arrangements and since Josh said he wanted Sissy to sleep with him, we purchased a table cloth to cover his mattress in case of any night time accidents. I slept with her that first night. Ugh, not very restful at all. Caleb took the 2nd night and Josh had Sunday and Monday nights. Monday I purchased a book on housebreaking and this book has great tips on what to do to kennel train which was my original plan. Sissy is slowly getting used to being in the kennel and last night slept in there. I was afraid she might be scared so I slept, not well, on the couch so she could see me if she woke up. I left the light on until she fell asleep. Hopefully tonight will be smoother and I will be able to sleep, at least I hope so.

Trying to figure it out....

Ok, I'm trying to figure out what to write. This has not been a fun weekend, Hubby and I have been at each other and not in a good way. He was not having a good day on Saturday and one of the boys left a cup of koolaid on the counter and he knocked it over. Rather than getting the offending child to clean it up or taking on the task himself, he decides to yell at me. Seriously YELL at me. I was in the garage defrosting the deep freeze which was a huge task in itself. It has been years since I have taken on the task of defrosting...need to buy a frost free deep freeze. Anywho, he starts to yell at me like I'm the one that left the cup on the counter. Here it is, Sunday night, and I'm still waiting for an apology. I doubt it will happen.

On another note, while cleaning the deep freeze I realized we have over 20 lbs. of ground beef and over 10 lbs of venison breakfast sausage. I really wish I had an upright freezer, I don't think things would get lost as easily. There was also steaks both beef and venison. I will not be purchasing ground meat or steaks anytime soon.

The worst part of cleaning out the freezer was I had to crawl into the freezer to get to the bottom. We eat a lot of popsicles, Otter Pops, and when we purchase a box we just dump them into the freezer and wait for them to freeze. The problem with this is sometimes one or two of them is broken the the sticky liquid spills in the bottom and freezes. Apparently this had happened more than once and a couple of packages of meat had attached themselves to the bottom of the freezer. As I was in the freezer pulling the packages of meat they tore, just a couple, and I decided to throw them out. I'm sure there was nothing wrong with them but it made me feel better.

Now I'm sure you are thinking that crawling into the freezer was a dumb thing to do and you are correct. I put a Clorox wipe container on the edge so if the door closed I would not be caught in there. I also kept my hand up, just in case. The boys were not around so they did not see me. This was good because I hate the whole 'do as I say and not as I do' that I used to get from my parents.

Oh well. I feel better now that I have typed all of this.

=)

Ready for a new beginning

I am ready for the beginning of the new school year. This year brings new classes and a new set of challenges which is exciting. I have been looking, and taking from friends, ideas that incorporate technology into teaching. There are so many free things out there in cyber space and some things that have a minimal cost.

By incorporating technology into my teaching, I hope to reach the students where they are. The students will use the technology in projects to explore math concepts that they will need to learn.

In my perfect little world, all of this will go on without any problems...we shall see.